Uneasy

white and black is the basic of all colours, also representable as the basic of life. black is often refered as the negative, the bad, the evil and white as the vice versa which is related to purity and good. but from the yin yang logo, one might realise that you cannot possess just one of the 2 colour, or in another word, you cannot just be too good or just too bad. if the black were really meant to be evil, you can see from the portion where black occupies a larger portion of the area, white gradually takes over black and slowly dominate the area. if translated to the language of life, wouldn't that simply convey that the more notorious you get, eventually the ethic in you will slowly be relished? definitely that is just a theory one can make out from interperting the logo, and it up to you the interpreter to analyse base on your character, mindset, and the path of life you've walk through. nevertheless, the theory that i just mentioned might just prove that we need a equilibrium in life, to work to play, to smile to cry, to run to sleep, to live and to die. to work to smile to run to live have always been deemed as the right thing to do for most of us, largely because they are productive and is recognised by our society as "useful" and are acknowledged as the right thing to do. However, without balancing it with play, cry, sleep and death, the system will not be in equilibrium and will eventually break down. It is easy to say, but you will be amazed on how difficult some takes to attain. Since white has been recognised as what the society wants, we have always work toward the white side, doing more than what we could just to show others that we are one step better than the other, who are just like anyone else striving for more of the white end. as we strive for the white for most our time, we eventually get used to doing the white thing, and it just seems like a part of our everyday life, a big part. we neglect the black part, the other side of our equilibrium, a just as important other side. Not forgetting its a long road, just like a marathon, it is impossible to miss out the black end. when one day you got the taste of a black end, you might feel uneasy, because its not the routine of your life, its not your habit to drink and party and have fun, its just not like you, you know it cheer up your heart from all the loads, but you just have this uneasy feeling because you do not think that this is the right thing to do. it feels like you're wasting your time your life on all these unproductive event.

Everyone has their own equilibrium point, maybe if your capacity is larger, you enjoy a bigger part of black and so, you will also have to produce a larger portion of white to balance out your life. However, regardless of how white or black you are, you just have to be equally black or white.

你有没有过，一边听着情歌，一边流着眼泪。。

感情是个善变的东西，它不只会喜新厌旧，它也能因为你而变得坚强，因为我而变得脆弱。当你伤感的时候，你很奇怪的会拒绝其他人的讨好，你想自己一个人越想越伤，越哭越伤心。你不想要任何人在你身边，但你却想要听到有人存在，你便倾向情歌。因为或许情歌里头的每一句都体现了你的现在，或者即使你对于那首歌的歌词一知半解，那首歌的曲，那首歌的感情，都把你围绕在这首情歌里。每个人都有属于他的情歌，他那专属的情歌才能把它一切的情感释怀成眼泪，一滴一滴的流出来。你会不停的重复一样那首歌，你会随着那首歌呐喊，希望一切都能随着声音飘走。唱着，哭着，你睡着了，但那首歌依然环绕在你耳边，直到你张开你哭肿的眼，伤痛已藏回了心底。你把歌关了，继续了你的生活。在不知某年某月某日的将来，当你从收音机听到了那首歌，你便不禁地想起了当年，心里悄悄的勾起了一丝丝触感。直到你看破红尘后，你发现这一切都是你人生的点滴，生活的一部分，你死后随着你而去的人生经历。

First Impression

Something sets me thinking for the past few days. The idea of first impression and knowing of a person. As always said, first impression counts, although just like anyone, my first instinct to a new person would be observing him which leaves me with a first impression but i would safely say i'm not a fan of first impressionist. This maybe due to knowing myself, a person you can never judge from the look cause its ever changing. So i understand that a person can be immensely different as the one you thought you knew when you first saw him. At the first look one can be attracted be the other from his look, his actions, his hygiene, his etiquette, his behaviour etc and this detail can also change a person impression to dislike. But the way i work is to try to know the person inside him and not the one everyone sees. I'll try to observe the details of him, his conversation topic to know more about the real him. Outer looks are often deceiving because it is a work of the person's environment, education, work, but the inner side can never bluff its way through and it's best tested by the way you act or behave when you though nobody is around. Kind, Soft-hearted, hot-tempered are just some of the real you to name. If its good inside, it will always be, but if its bad inside it can never turn good. I guess i'm living in another world where first impression is second compared to expressing with your real heart.

Chocolates makes you happy and are great for sex.

SMILE:)

There are things which you can never understand until you experience it

That is the benefit of long title as it more or less brings out the main point of what one have to say. Does fear ever occur to you when people beside you, your friends and family because of age or illness? For the juveniles it might not have been something you've been through, but for the elderlies, i've seen many of such. When you start to grow old, you slowly see your hair turns white, your skin crumpled up, your speed slow down, your abilities weren't as smooth as before, the idea of death in near might just occur to you. Death is definitely inevitable, but understanding it helps you live your life better as understand from "Tuesday with Morrie". But as death is unpredictable, it gives uncertainties, and thats the main fear, not death itself. When you see your close friends pass away because of health problems at maybe an age of 70 its naturally that you a friend of the similar age fear that you'll encounter similar problems. Because we cannot control it, we cannot predict it, it creates a kind of anxiety in us just like the fear for 2012, the only difference is the fear of the whole Earth dying and not an individual. Back to the topic, because we are not living in the circumstances, we will or will be difficult for us to understand the kind of feeling, that kind of mindset the person is having at the moment. We can learn alot, study as much as you want, know as much as possible, but somethings sometimes somewhere, we will just have to been through it to understand it. We human are strongly affected actually totally affected by what you've been through, saw and feel so because of the highly varied life each individual been through, it forms a different character, mindset of a person and this whole experince that one has ever been through will decide his decision his desire and his deed. So only going through the different parts of life and experiencing more will only then you can more accurately decide for yourself and others, it is something which you can learn nothing from the books, and i guess that's the take away of lives.

The Art of Life

People

After sleeping for so long, it's is time to wake up. My thoughts are always triggered by things around me, the people i see and meet, incident of a day etc. But since holiday started, my mind stopped. Things that happens around me is too menial to trigger my thoughts, or should i say i have already thought about it. However there is this one thin that comes in millions and billions of different types and you can never understand all of them, this is human. People come in all kinds, black, white, hispanic, asian etc from the outside, cunning, smart, evil etc from the inside. Since long ago we have tried to group people into groups, astrology stars, zodiac are just some to name. Definitely we can see some similarities in these few groups of people, however, in many aspects each and everyone is still different. Being able to understand as many types of people as possible will always put us on advantage because human interaction happens everywhere and anytime so understanding the one you are talking to can sometimes help you achieve your objectives easier. Personally, i enjoy studying people, how they react to certain circumstances, how they would speak how they would behave themselves. This can sometimes help in forseeing what people around you will do next step. But the mistake sometimes can be reading too deep into it and label the wrong person with the wrong behaviour, which is prejudgment and is wrong. I wish to further write more but i'm too tired, i shall continue again because human is simly complicated, was that an oxymoron?